It’s Go Time….
Wednesday, March 25th, 2009Well, the time has finally come. It’s funny–the last few weeks all I’ve been saying is that I can’t wait for the baby to come out and now that it’s time, I’m scared shitless.
We leave for the hospital in about a half an hour. I’ve spent the entire morning power-cleaning the house—one, because I’m that obsessed with cleaning, but mainly two, because it’s kept my mind occupied. I’m not sure if it’s really hit me yet that in 48 hours, I will have a daughter. I just packed up her little onesie and socks to go home from the hospital and I’m overwhelmed with emotion.
I’m nervous about this whole labor thing. I’m most nervous that I’ll end up having a C-section. My friends tell me it’s no big deal–and it some cases, even better than a vaginal birth–but it still scares me. Mainly, I just want the baby to be healthy. That thought is thrown out so much by expectant parents. People ask, “Do you want a boy or a girl?” And the PC answer is, “It doesn’t matter as long as the baby is healthy.” I think for the first time, I’m starting to really understand the truth in that.
Thank God I have a husband who is so loving and supportive. He’s my rock. I’ve been crying at the drop of a hat–and he keeps me steady and sane. I know he will get me through this.
I know everything is going to be great. I have one of the best doctors in the area and am delivering at the top women’s hospital in SE Wisconsin. So many of my friends have beautiful children. All have crazy stories of labor. Yet, all have lived to tell me about them. Pretty soon I’ll be the one sharing my own story.
Thank you for caring about Homer and me. We love you and I can’t wait for you to meet our little girl.
KP
